Madonna Says She Experienced Suicidal Feelings During Custody Battle Over Son Rocco

Madonna has shared that she contemplated taking her own life after becoming embroiled in a public custody battle over her then-teenage son.

Almost a decade ago, the Grammy-winning musician found herself at the centre of a legal spat with her ex-husband Guy Ritchie, after their eldest son Rocco, who was 15 at the time, said he wanted to live with his dad in the UK rather than joining his mum at their family home in the States.

The Like A Prayer singer was on a world tour during the early stages of this custody battle, at one point breaking down in tears as she talked about Rocco during a one-off stand-alone show in Australia.

During a wide-ranging new interview on the podcast On Purpose With Jay Shetty, which mostly centred around spirituality, Madonna opened up about this low ebb in her personal life.

I actually contemplated suicide,” she recalled. “One of the most painful moments in my life where I honestly couldn’t see the forest through the trees was when I went through a custody battle with my son.

Even though my marriage didn’t work out – I mean, a lot of people’s marriages don’t work out, they marry the wrong people, they’re not aligned, they’re not meant for each other.

“[But] someone trying to take my child away from me was like, they might as well just kill me. That’s really how I was thinking.”

Rocco Ritchie in January 2025
Rocco Ritchie in January 2025

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Madonna went on to disclose that she would often find herself “lying on the floor of my dressing room sobbing” during this period.

“I had to go on stage every night,” she said. “I really thought it was like it was the end of the world. I couldn’t take it. I just couldn’t take it.”

The chart-topping star is a mum to six children in total: 28-year-old Lourdes, 25-year-old Rocco, 20-year-old David, 19-year-old Mercy and 13-year-old twins Estere and Stella.

Rocco Ritchie and Madonna at New York Fashion Week in 2022
Rocco Ritchie and Madonna at New York Fashion Week in 2022

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Fortunately, Madonna and Rocco have now put their past differences aside, and are now “great friends”, she told Jay Shetty, and last month he joined his siblings for his famous mum’s birthday celebrations in Italy.

Weeks earlier, she also made a public statement in solidarity with the children of Gaza on her eldest son’s birthday, which she described as the “best gift I can give to him as a mother”.

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Jennifer Lopez Recalls Very Blunt Feedback After Trying Out For This Huge Movie Musical

Despite her success as both a chart-topping singer and award-winning actor, Jennifer Lopez had never actually merged the two together and appeared in a big-screen musical until she landed her upcoming role in the new film Kiss Of The Spider Woman.

However, she’s revealed that wasn’t for lack of trying.

J-Lo has previously spoken out about how she has tried out for roles in various musical films over the years, and during a recent Q&A after a screening of her film, she reflected on her audition for the 1996 movie adaptation of Evita.

“I went in to audition for Evita, for Alan Parker,” she recalled, referring to the late six-time Oscar nominee who helmed the film. “I had been practising for weeks, and I sang my heart out. And he goes, ‘you’re amazing’.”

Unfortunately, his feedback didn’t end there, as he then told her: “You know Madonna has the part, right?”

“I said, ‘OK, bye bye. Nice to meet you’,” Jen then concluded.

Indeed, it was J-Lo’s fellow pop icon Madonna who played Eva Perón in the film version of Andrew Lloyd Webber, earning the Like A Prayer singer her first Golden Globe win.

Earlier this year, Jennifer also revealed how she tried out for a part in the film version of Chicago, as well as “getting very close” to being cast in Nine.

“There were a lot of things that I had always hoped that I could do and just wasn’t the right time. But this is the right thing,” she said, referring to her role in Kiss Of The Spider Woman.

Madonna in Evita
Madonna in Evita

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Kiss Of The Spider Woman was directed by Bill Condon, who has previously helmed Dreamgirls and Disney’s live-action remake of Beauty And The Beast, as well as co-writing the film versions of Chicago and The Greatest Showman.

The new movie sees J-Lo playing fictional screen diva Ingrid Luna opposite Tonatiuh and Diego Luna.

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